I Do Exist was released in July, 2004. Nearly two years later, it is fitting to reflect a bit about the video and how it has been perceived.
The response to the documentary has been gratifying. The film has been
well-received by critics and viewers of all ideologies and opened many minds.
It has been shown on television around the world. As writer and producer, I
wanted to tell stories and provide academic context for those stories. In large
measure, I believe I was able to do that. However, all documentaries become
dated the day after they are released. People pass through seasons of change
and perspectives shift. I think all who purchase the video should recognize
that a documentary is a snapshot in time. I cannot say what each person
profiled would say about their situation now. Nor should I.
As with any project of this nature, I Do Exist has its critics. As I view I Do
Exist today, the story I see and hear is how some people determine to live in
accord with their total worldview. However, others come away thinking the video
suggests that complete change of sexual desires is necessary to be successful
in that determination. If there has been a consistent criticism of the film, it
has been that perception. Stating the issue as a question, if a person has
persistent homosexual feelings, does that mean there is something wrong with
their relationship with God? My belief is now and was then that a committed
Christian may indeed experience these feelings, without violating their faith.
Inasmuch as I Do Exist gives the impression that perfection is possible, I want
to state clearly that this perspective was not the intent, nor should the video
ever be used or shown with that aim. If you want to understand how some people
regard their journey at a specific point in time, then you will be fascinated
to listen to these stories. However, do not purchase the documentary if you are
looking for a way to express to gay people that they should change their sexual
feelings to be acceptable to God. In traditional Christianity, people come to
God as they are. The relationship that is then established is personal and
unique. And those stories continue.
Warren Throckmorton, PhD